Beloved, as we have been praying for divine appointments, hoping to connect with you heart to heart…I don’t believe you are here reading this by chance. G-d has drawn us together so we could journey together because its not good to be alone…
In our prayer time we were made aware of a past season in your life when so much went wrong it seemed that the fear, the losses, the upheavals were all too much. Since then we sensed things had leveled out a bit but there was a trepidation?Something felt unsettled. As we prayed into this we received Romans 8:28. We usually give the quick quote of this passage by saying G-d is working all things together for our good…but the Passion Translation brings the Word in a love soaked translation. I’ve included it here.
Romans 8:26 – 31 And in a similar way, the Holy Spirit takes hold of us in our human frailty to empower us in our weakness. For example, at times we don’t even know how to pray, or know the best things to ask for. But the Holy Spirit rises up within us to super-intercede on our behalf, pleading to God with emotional sighs too deep for words. God, the searcher of the heart, knows fully our longings, yet he also understands the desires of the Spirit, because the Holy Spirit passionately pleads before God for us, his holy ones, in perfect harmony with God’s plan and our destiny. So we are convinced that every detail of our lives is continually woven together to fit into God’s perfect plan of bringing good into our lives, for we are his lovers who have been called to fulfill his designed purpose. For he knew all about us before we were born and he destined us from the beginning to share the likeness of his Son. This means the Son is the oldest among a vast family of brothers and sisters who will become just like him. Having determined our destiny ahead of time, he called us to himself and transferred his perfect righteousness to everyone he called. And those who possess his perfect righteousness he co-glorified with his Son! So, what does all this mean? If God has determined to stand with us, tell me, who then could ever stand against us?
If you’ve been through a truly horrible season in life you can come away from it shaken. I know that first-hand when we lost our home in a sheriff sale while in the ministry, and a friend let us move into their vacant apartment. The children were young and in one room the water poured through the hole in the roof into buckets we gathered on the floor. It was rock bottom for me. I remember waking up the first morning in the borrowed apartment and opening my bible and the words were black ink on white paper…the Word had always been a Living Entity to me before then. But somehow I was so broken that I couldn’t find my way back. I HAD to know why? Why did we lose everything? We were in the ministry; my perception had been that we would always be provided for since we were doing G-d’s will. But when I opened my Bible and saw those black letters on white paper, lifeless, I knew I was in trouble. I cried out to G-d and He made me to know an image:
I saw Peter, my husband, who, there is no one who has ever loved me more. In the image I received the idea, if Peter was far far away and I was in trouble, and I got word to him, what would Peter do? I knew he would move heaven and earth if he knew I was in the state I was in, and even if he couldn’t come himself, he’d send friends to get us the help we needed…we were without groceries and basic toiletries…I saw in the image me writing Peter and telling him how terrible it was and what I desperately needed.
So when I stopped praying, I got up found paper and wrote G-d a 9 page letter. I emptied out the whole last year of heartache and warfare…I told Him how terrible everything was, how we lost our home in a sheriff sale, we were basically homeless, living in a friends vacant apartment which was beyond polite description. And we had no money for basic needs. I didn’t know how to mail the letter to G-d, but I saw my mother in law had given me an old metal candy box and I thought, the moment I put the letter to G-d in the candy box, it’s as good as in His Hands…not thinking anything would happen, but I thought at least maybe I would open my bible and it would start breathing again. I put the letter in the metal candy box and I was closing the lid and I heard, as audibly as anything I’ve ever heard with my mortal ears, “Love will Always Answer!” In that moment I was set back into hope…which is the basis for faith…then when I prayed about why we lost everything, I sensed G-d saying if I was willing to give up what I thought was “my right” to know why, He would exchange my need for Understanding with His Peace, if I was willing to surrender maybe never knowing why. Until then I was mentally tormented with the why. I HAD to know WHY??? It was like I couldn’t let go of why?? In that moment I comprehended Philippians 4:7 The Passion Translation Tell him every detail of your life, then God’s wonderful peace that transcends human understanding, will make the answers known to you through Jesus Christ.
I surrendered my need to know why and He gave me His Peace and something on top of it…I sensed He was saying to me that if I ever saw what was really going on behind the scenes, the warfare that had come against us to secure Praise and Worship in the Airwaves 24/7 in the Capitol of Pennsylvania, I wouldn’t be able to sleep at night. I had a knowing that darkness was terribly real. And I knew He was protecting me. Through all that G-d and I were closer than we had ever been before…what was meant for evil against me, G-d had turned into something so far beyond what I could have ever hoped for. To this day I can not doubt His Love for me. Know beloved that this process is what is being given to you as well…and know that I am praying for you.
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